yesterday and tomorrow.

one of my favorite pictures of me and my momma. we were at a work camp in arizona, i think.
me and my buddy evan before a night out in brenham. with elmojane, of course.
me at about the age marley is now. wasn't i a cutie?
simba's photo session from monday. they're almost like a rorschach test. the middle one simba is curled around in the fetal position. i watched the enitre thing and still have no clue what the sex is. ben had an idea, but then he changed it. so he has no clue either. mom thinks it's a boy, but she just pulling that out of her tookus. she didn't even see the ultrasound.
the new decor for simba's room-it's pooh bear yellow on the walls and a variety of purples.

so i got a really awesome present in the mail a couple of days ago. my aunt lynne (dad's brothers wife) sent me a dvd of the jones family reunion from the summer before my dad died. i'm guessing she's in the process of converting old vhs to dvd. the video was great on so many levels. a lot of it was my cousin kenny at about the age marley is now. kind of crazy to see him that small, especially since he's a big burly football player now. i also got to see some really awesome hairdos and clothes. we were a fashionable bunch back then. but the thing that made it truly priceless was being able to hear my dad's voice after twenty something years. not just his voice. him. it was heartbreaking and wonderful all at the same time.
i've been going thru some of my old pictures and recently put a couple on cd. pictures from high school and some older. my friend evan was killed in a car accident a couple of years ago and some of the pictures were of him. so for my next bout of nesting, i am going to organize my sewing/ photo room. i shared the photos with evan's parents and they requested copies. i know i have lots of pictures of him, so i guess it might be the push i need to organize myself a little. what's the point of having all those photos if i can't see them or enjoy them?
we went for our half way there ultrasound on monday. simba is looking pretty healthy. i can feel him/her moving around a lot now. and last night ben could feel it too. such a cool magical feeling. we have decided how we are going to decorate simba's room. we have all the baby gear left over from marley and ten tons of clothes, so we won't need to add much. the room is painted yellow and we are accenting with purple. nice and gender neutral. and then we are going to use giraffes too. marley has monkeys and simba will have giraffes.
speaking of marley. she has given up on nap time. i don't think i'm emotionally ready for that. but this week, she has not taken a nap once. granted she now sleep until 9am, sometimes 10am. but i really love nap time. c'est la vie. i'll keep trying for it. she gave up two naps a day about this time last year. she has been the sweetest thing lately. she is learning how to say please and thank you. she knows thank you in sign and struggles to say it verbally. please she says verbally. well, she tries to. it's very cute. and of course she is always calling gg on the phone. she loves playing with ben and i's old cell phones (she has 3 now) and every time when you ask her who she's talking to she says gg.
i guess i've entered into the anxiety stage of pregnancy. i didn't remember being worried all the time with marley, but ben remembers it. the other night i couldn't sleep b/c i was so worried. about everything. but one thing in particular is simba and marley. not that they aren't healthy and happy. but how could i possibly love another child as much as i love marley. sometimes it feels like my heart will burst. i guess that's the great thing about love, there's always room for more.